Friday, January 25, 2013

Your words, my thoughts

Thank-you all for your kind words in the comments to my last post and in private emails, along with your prayers, cyber-hugs, sympathy, and understanding. The hardest part of having these wonderful creatures who trust and depend on us is making decisions of life and death. And when death is the only merciful option but they "do not go gentle into that good night," but "rage, rage against the dying of the light," it is utterly devastating, at least to me.

I would still be sobbing if I didn't keep turning my thoughts to other things. I know people who are dealing with much worse circumstances in their lives, so I pray for them; I've spent more time with my other sheep; I've buried my face often in my horse's neck and in Jackson's fur. "Life," of course, goes on, so I work and do chores and homeschool Brian.
My little "Indian" built a campfire this week
Yesterday I cleaned up some dusty hay debris from the barn and spread it in the chicken yarn, which made for happy hens, which in turn made me smile.

To all my new followers who came to Boulderneigh through Vicki's Grow Your Blog Party, I apologize for not being all "sweetness and light" here. My blog generally stays away from most of life's less pleasant aspects, at least the ones that have to do with people (like politics!). We all deal with those; they come and go. But my heart has always gravitated to animals, and because this is, predominantly, a "farm blog," some of the trials and travails of country living do find their way here. That's only honest, and perhaps even helpful for others sometimes. Certainly, having a community who cares helps ME! Thank-you again.

I am enjoying following some new blogs myself because of Vicki's party, and have become more of a(n armchair) world traveler because of it. Rose Fern is in Greece, and is giving away the cutest little earbud pouch on her blog. Check it out!

Peace to you, from . . .


Rose Fern said...

I don't think you should 'aplologize' for sharing your loss on your blog. Even though blogging, for me too, urges ut to focus on the positive aspects of our lives,sometimes we cannot exclude important unpleaseant events.It's ok.
Thank you for the link!Hope you win!

thecrazysheeplady said...

It agree completely. It's so hard to share the bad stuff, but we are all a family and that closeness does help. I'd have never thought that about blogging before I started. And yes, one good thing about chickens is they do always make me laugh. No matter how mad I get at them the rest of the time ;-).

C-ingspots said...

I'm one of those people who has always gravitated to animals too Michelle...and I understand exactly how difficult those decisions are to make, but when they're not ready to go, it is utterly devastating and gut-wrenching. My Nellie was one of those and my heart still grieves for her. :( But, please don't apologize for sharing your pain and life's sadder moments with your friends...that's what we're for, to comfort and love one another. Wish all our days could be rosy and bright, but it's just not that way. But you're right, keeping busy and moving on is the only way to handle these things. Big hugs to you.

Kelly said...

No need to feel bad about letting us know you are sad....because by helping you with kind words or a thoughtful note, we are really helping ourselves feel good. You are one of the first people to leave a kind word when one of our days is troublesome, and I am happy to repay that kindness to you. I love that you cared so deeply for your ram. I cry when I lose any of my animals, I know some people think that's nuts, but I can't help it. I celebrate their birth and I mourn their passing.
You are a good soul Michelle.

Tammy said...

Hey Michelle,
So sorry to hear about Bunker. It's always so hard to lose them. We try so hard to do everything 'right' to keep them safe and cared for then something like that comes along. It wasn't a good year here with the sheep and I lost several to bizarre situations. I also think that the blogs serve as a sort of 'diary' and find myself referring back to my own blog often to see when something happened and the particulars, so no, not always sweetness and light, but real all the same.
Take care,

MISS PEACH ~(^.^)~ said...

We are family here in the good and especially sad times! we hold each other up when our heavy hearts make us lean...we carry on...well written...we love you at the cozy cottage...hugs to Brian for us all too!!!

Cloverleaf Art and Fibre said...

Michelle, I just saw the sad news about Bunker. So sorry. -m.

Lori Skoog said...

Your blogging pals are very understanding and stay in touch because of who you are and what you stand for. The love for all your animals is very evident and there is nothing wrong with true sensitivity. I wish you well.

Becka said...

I am just now reading about Bunker. How heart breaking for you and your family.
No need to feel as though you cannot speak of thees things here. These are the things that shape us and create our lives. We all venture into others lives for unknown reasons, so perhaps you just needed a few extra hugs right now.
Hang in there.
Hugs from Becka @ Girasole Farm